Things I want

I want to sing you a lullaby. When I say I love you I want you to smile and cry. I want all of the stars in the night sky to be jealous of you and I.



Autumn night

I settled into this somber day, I watched the autumn leaves fall and the children run and play.

It’s always a surprise to see how time flies.

I’m sitting, wrapped up in thoughts, memories have me drunk, like vodka shots.

I found it useless to grasp at the past, somethings in life weren’t meant to last.

But, I sometimes like to visit you there, a time in life when I hadn’t care. No beauty on earth could even compare, to smiling moments two lovers share.


After you

What this heart break did to me, it removed my heart’s anonymity.

No longer am I afraid to say, please babe, won’t you stay?

I have felt the pain of losing out, but that doesn’t mean it’s love I doubt.

Each day I long for something more, but I’ve yet to pull myself from the floor. 

I remember you asked if we should shut this door, and I remember my pride kept me from saying anything more.

I felt the pain of love lost, I feel that I payed the ultimate cost.

The depth of my soul knows no bounds, the passion I have always astounds.

In nights deep black, I lay alone. The sounds of my memories begin to moan.

The sadness is almost a friend, reminding to be careful for fear of the end.

My eyes have known a thousand years, like a great river, I’ve many tears

The wind blows on my shoulders tonight, but this vodka makes things seem right.

My mom asked me if I fear death, I asked how can I, it’s in each breath.

I plummet deeper into entropy, you’ve stolen many pieces of me.

I’ll toast to you this night, give me some time, and I’ll be alright.

When you’re in your bed, perhaps you should think about the things I said.

Lips traced

I drink more now, I miss having that connection. Being loved is life’s confection.

Having a soft hand lay upon my chest, that’s the only time I have good rest.

I find myself alone quite often, sometimes I really feel forgotten.

I hate this confusion, false attractions and life’s illusion. My bleeding heart, a familiar contusion.
I can be strong, I’ll wear a happy face, but I miss the familiar lips my fingers would trace.


Alone here

You were just a spark, something I saw in the dark. You started to burn bright after a quiet remark. Making plans like we’d love forever, not knowing the ties we’d sever.

Sometimes I revisit the places we met, sometimes I sit, feeling regret. I dreamed of you and me standing at the alter, I retrace my memories to see my faulter.

There is a sad haze that grips my senses, we were parted by circumstantial fences. I look across the forest, I see a setting sun. I sit here in darkness, my thoughts on the run.

I don’t understand this world, it’s never been clear. I keep wondering why God has abandoned me here.


Sunday feeling

You hurt me, and I want to hate you now. But, that’s next to impossible, I don’t know how.

I imagine you happy in his embrace, when I close my eyes I see your face.

I don’t want to love you anymore, tell me how I can stop. When I found out you moved on, it made my heart drop.

I need to move on, and I know it’s what I should do, but it’s taken me some time to get over you.

You moved on so quick, and this is how I feel, I don’t believe your love for me was real. Too inexperienced and sheltered, you just liked the thrill. You took aim at my heart, you meant to kill.

I’ve accepted this reality, one without you. I’ve accepted this feeling, and it’s really quite blue.

 When you laughed at my tears, did it make you feel strong? Or, when you hung up the phone did you begin to feel wrong?

In this life, I think you’ll find, being a loving human brings peace of mind.

Mornings are still hard, you must be blind. Did you even notice the broken pieces left behind?

There is beauty in my pain, eyes dripping like rain. I’m used to this feeling, I don’t even complain.
Guess what? I’m going to smile today. I’m going to keep smiling, not because I’m ashamed about being sad, but because she’s out there somewhere, and when we meet, I want to be ready, smiling.